April is a Fool

I have hated April since 2018. It is my birthday month but I have also hated my birthday since 2018. Ever since then, I have tried, to have a decent birthday, but always something or the other ends up making me dislike this terrible month more and more. And when you do have a good birthday, the memory of it gets tainted because you spent it with a person who later broke you into a million pieces and doesn't even remember fucking up your life. 
I have been doing really well for more than a month, and I am sure this rant is just me overreacting to a bad start to an already unlucky month for me. I'm sure I will be back to being excited for my birthday this year because a lot of things have changed for the better since last year.
But right now, I am feeling like this month will forever be doomed for me, no matter how amazing I am doing or how good my life is. It is what it is I guess. 

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