A few reminders to keep you on your way

 Exams month is here and I feel like I'm drowning in the workload and the pressure of scoring well. The University burdens us with useless things a week before our exams, having us work for months on a file that they don't even look at, writing 20 pages of practicals for the examiner to flip through and ask us one question about it. All of this right before the final exams, and blame us for not studying well for it. 

Anyway, whatever the circumstances, I gotta do what I gotta do. Blaming anybody else right now isn't going to help me study and do well in exams, so hopefully writing this out might remind me to take it easy and believe in myself. 

Just a few reminders that I need to keep in mind right now:

I just need to breathe when I'm anxious. I just need to remind myself of all those times when I hit rock bottom and made it back to the surface. I just need to take it one day at a time, one step at a time, and maybe even one breath at a time, but I can do it. It seems like I cannot keep up right now, but when it is over, I'll see that I was worrying about the wrong things. Right now I cannot stop worrying about it, but I hope I can keep in mind that I can do it no matter what. I hope I remember this in the anxiety-filled days that are going to follow.

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